frrrrrustrated.

this year's Aidilfitri is so cockedup i feel like banging my head against the wall.

first.
i cant get to break fast with Sham n friends like i do every year, this year bcus im working PM shift that day. n i ran out of requests for the month already so i cant change my roster.

second.
im working night shift on the weekend that Sham n friends may decide to go for Raya outing. -> 4/9/09.

third.
my family cant decide when to balik kampong like we usually do every Aidilfitri. My parents is depending on my sister because her husband can drive n has a car. But my sister didnt initiate anything to tell us when they are free to balik kampong. i hate this. i realy wish i could drive!! so that my parents dont have to depend on my sister n her husband to go anywhr. im not saying that my sister n her husband will sulk or refuse to drive them ard anywhere, but the one who can drive is the son-in-law. not my parents' own daughter (my sister) so its abit weird n too much if my parents were to keep on asking for a ride anywhere. n it doesnt help that my bro-in-law is the quiet n reserved type who dont like to talk much n only talk when necessary. so we wont know if he is sincere or he is reluctant. sigh sigh sigh. i hate the fact that i cant drive! yet. im learning now. but slowly.... like a turtle. its either i hv no time, too busy or when i have time, i hv no money to go for driving lessons.

hopefully, the next ramadhan n aidilfitri, my family is still complete n healthy, n I WILL BE THE ONE driving my parents back to their kampong, in MY VERY OWN CAR. InsyaAllah. Amin.